My Struggle with Craving Sobriety...
Crazy that 6 years ago, I was still in the hospital recovering from a severe overdose of alcohol and drugs. I was in a coma with sepsis for 10 days on life support. I had multiple organ failure which also resulted in total kidney failure. I had to have dialysis 3 times a week at the hospital for months. I developed a blood clot and pneumonia, had to have a lung drained, and was hardly able to walk. I was miserable in my life, and all I cared about was drinking and partying. It took me a while to get to the point where I craved sobriety.
January 18th, 2023 I celebrated 3 years of consecutive sobriety with my family and sober sisters in Christ. But my mom likes to brag that I have been sober for the majority of the last 6 years, which is true. She says all those sober days still count. While there were numerous relapses, they were very short periods of time, with the last ones being only a few days until I admitted myself into a behavioral health unit.
Currently I work for a mental health and rehab facility. In the past I was on the board of a non-profit, Armor Up Recovery Homes and Ministry. I served as house mom at their recovery home. I recently completed my training to be a leader at Celebrate Recovery, and I am about to begin my journey as a sponsor and a certified addiction specialist.
Every day, I prioritize God and recovery, and I assist others in their recovery journey.I absolutely LOVE my life and how it revolves around being sober and helping others. Thinking about drinking is literally non-existent now. I've had my ups and downs trying to navigate this new way of life and I'm so blessed to have the family I have that has been there for me every step of the way and wanted this life for me even when I didn't yet know I wanted it.
God has blessed me and healed me completely from the inside out—spiritually, mentally, and physically. All I had to do was put in a fraction of the work because I worked so much harder at drinking and partying. The benefits have been life-changing and have literally changed me into the person God always meant for me to be.
We can't do this alone, and I couldn't have done this without God, my family, especially my mom and dad, my grandparents, my past employers, my sponsor, and my sobriety family.
Thank you for being there for me and loving me while I learned to properly love myself and others. I am blessed beyond measure and eternally grateful! To learn more about my story and the stories of others, please follow Craving Sobriety's Facebook page, Instagram, and join our private Facebook group for those struggling with addiction (Coming soon) and podcast (Coming soon). Visit our sister site Thirsty 2 Thrive for all things related to mental health and contentment.
"It's just a little red wine, I'll be fine
Not like I wanna do this every night
I've been good, don't I deserve it?
I think I earned it, feels like it's worth it
In my mind, mind
Twisted reality, hopeless insanity
I told you I was okay but I was lying
I was dancing with the devil
Out of control
Almost made it to heaven
It was closer than you know
Playing with the enemy
Gambling with my soul
It's so hard to say no
When you're dancing with the devil"
Dancing with the Devil- Demi Lovato